Category: Thoughts

Where I am in Life

October 20, 2013 | By | Add a Comment

My adolescence is dead. I am not yet old, but no longer young. I am not where I thought life would take me, though I find myself content.

Family gives me the greatest pleasure, and friendships after that. I have acquired a small amount of wisdom that guides me each day and preserves me from the thickets of despair and desperation.

I have accepted the anxiety of our age, and finally began the process of understanding its cause. This is the first step towards living outside of it.

The feeling that there is not enough time in a day to do everything necessary is dangerous, and even more so because it is pervasive. We must consider what this means for our lives.

A path with unmeetable demands is not a journey but a form of suffering. The sad thing is that we do not know how badly we suffer.


August 17, 2013 | By | Add a Comment

I can always say “tomorrow,” but tomorrow is never today.
What is not done now, may forever be delayed.
And so let us live, now as much as ever,
Lest while living we live not, and while living die forever.


August 5, 2013 | By | Add a Comment

Real happiness is true and deep, though sometimes it can be rare.
Even good things can cause unrest, and stress befriends despair.
When life becomes too busy, exhaustion can prevail,
A paucity of peace and rest, will contentment assail.

In my case it happened slowly, for busyness is its own distraction,
from the need to stop and wonder, at beauty’s serene satisfaction.
And this is now my journey, to slow down and to renew,
to love and see and wonder, and find the happiness I once knew.

I Wonder as I Wander

July 15, 2013 | By | 1 Comment

Sometimes life feels more like wandering than anything else. Even when the monotony of a schedule pulses as consistently as a heart, I can feel detached from it, and wonder just what it is that I am doing with my life.

Today is my day off, and today I feel like I am wandering. What is this life for? Who do I really love? What will matter in the end?

I visited my grandmother’s grave yesterday, and reflected on the times we had together 14 years ago. She is gone, and hardly anyone even remembers her. It is a strange think to think I will join her one day in the ground.

I hope when they put me there I will have few regrets. I hope today I can live in light of that day, and do something that matters, be someone who matters. I wonder as I wander.

The George Zimmerman Verdict

July 13, 2013 | By | Add a Comment

There are several things that have fascinated me about the George Zimmerman trial. Many people are certain that events occurred one way, while many others are equally certain they happened another. How did so many people come to have such strong opinions about this tragic but parochial event?

The media told us that this case, and it’s outcome, are incredibly important. They are using this case to measure the health and strength of race relations in the US. However, we must remember that the media can be biased. They care about entertainment and their ratings. They allow these factors to play a disproportionately large role in the decisions concerning what things to cover. The media knew most people have strong feelings about race; it is, after all, a very important issue. They turned this case into a national event and gave it an importance and meaning way beyond what was appropriate.

Why do i say this? What does the decision of six jurors in a courtroom in Florida tell me about race relations on a national scale? Not very much. I’m serious. It tells me about as much as the opinion of six other people that might live in Wisconsin or New Mexico. Don’t get me wrong, there are things in this case that should cause us all to reflect. It is a good opportunity for each of us to look at our own lives and see how we can each work harder to eliminate discrimination and to treat every person with dignity and respect. But what does the verdict mean for us as a nation? Only what we let it mean. The media has told us it means something about the health of our nation. The media wanted something we would watch; we wanted something we thought was important. There are two tragedy’s here. The first is a young man’s death. The second is a nation focused on one trial and not focused on our own lives. Laws cannot and do not change hearts. It is only when each of us becomes personally concerned with equality and justice that race relations will improve.

This trial was an opportunity for us all to examine ourselves and ask how we can each make progress in this most important area. However, we let the media tell us what this case meant, and in so doing most people have interpreted the verdict as either a win or a loss. It is, for our nation, neither. It is an opportunity for all of us to personally reflect on what we can do to love each other better. That should be the focus. That is what is important. That is what, I am afraid, what has been lost and overlooked.